Running Away, Giving Up and the Benefits of Being Caught

the dreamThis week, I’ll be speaking in Western Michigan for two women’s groups on Hope Beyond the Picket Fence.  I’ll be sharing what I call “my angry mom story.”  It’s the hope and truth our family has lived through when the storybook image came crashing down and my faith journey of perseverance and surrender instead of giving up.

It’s the hope I have in a living Lord who restores, redeems, and came after me. 

Do you need hope that God loves you and is willing to come after you?

Several years ago, I found myself running from the God I love.  And as I ran, He pursued.  He ran after me.  He’s pursued and brought me where He wants me to be.  He’s allowed me to see that desiring more of Him is better than being content with what’s not-okay.  I’ve found when I relinquish what I want to what He wants, the rewards are always better. 

This requires selflessness, surrender, and giving up control of “the inmost being,” what scripture calls the most personal parts of ourselves (Psalm 139).  This is scary, because the things inside of us are usually things no one else knows but God.

Yet despite knowing our ugliness, He still desires us.

As I’ve learned to trust God with things I haven’t let anyone touch, I’ve experienced a love that is so lavish, I don’t want anything else.  For a person with an addictive past, that’s a bold statement.

Nothing satisfies like the peace and grace of God himself.

I’ve learned to say, “Lord, I want you more than……,” and I’ve learned He won’t lead me astray or abandon me.  I’ve learned His goodness over my control is like water to a thirsty soul.

I humbly ask you to pray for me and the women who will hear my hope-filled journey this week in Michigan.  But I also invite you to accompany me on a life-long journey of letting the Father “catch” you, whoo you, and pour His lavish love on you.  

It’s a lifetime journey, taking the Father’s hand and releasing everything in you so He can mold you in His image and design He has for you.

Believe me, it’s worth it.  There is nothing greater.

For you created my inmost being.” Psalm 139:13

Blessings to you this week,

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5 comments

  1. Hi Brenda, when we come to realize that God loves and wants us, despite ourselves, half the battle is won. We have been through some tough stuff lately and there is no way i would have even wanted to walk this without the Lord. How much worse would it have been. Love your testimony here, love how God did not let you get away. Great post
    God bless my friend
    Tracy

  2. thank you for this post. i’m really struggling with my faith right now. i’m specifically struggling with how psychology and faith go together. i thought that counseling was going really well, then i seemed to lose sight of God in all of it, and now i just feel lost. anyway, thanks for sharing your heart here and giving me hope.

    • There is so much in faith and psychology that do go together. Often in separating them we do lose sight. Praying that the God who created everything about you will give you the peace and grace in all of your wrestling. Thank you for sharing this.

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